Relationship to this Disease

About 5 years ago, I was introduced to a "life changing" little book called "Purifying The Heart" by Dr. John Goldthwaite. This is about practicing a particular Spiritual discipline of "Detachment"--detaching oneself from any and all thoughts and/or underlying emotions which have the very real and practical effect of keeping our hearts "closed" to who it is that we really are--our Higher Self-- and thus leaving ourselves basically attached to some lesser egoic-level of identification with something/anything less than Ultimate Truth--Knowledge of The One which underlies all creation.

I'm not talking "intellectual philosophy" here, but instead a very pure teaching and a profoundly experiential practice that in my own case has offered several "transformational" insights that have truly altered my previous level of understanding and in fact, provided the opportunity for true "Soul-Level" growth and an expansion or raising of one's level of Consciousness!

The Hebrew poet once said: "Be still and know that I am God"...

In simplistic terms, if we can first become still and then, from this perspective of "open attention and awareness", can observe our thoughts and emotions all from this quiet and peaceful vantage point, and pray for the Grace to not get caught up in or lose ourselves in identifying with these thoughts, emotions, etc., then what can actually occur is for our Souls to receive "Love Teachings" from them, and actually get a glimpse of how these objects are actually a reflection of some unloving way in which we regard ourselves. The trick is, of course, to stay with the "watching/observing" of the thought, etc. and not get "lost" in identifying with the particular thoughtform or emotion and believing that it is "us". And then, if we are graced with being able to maintain this level of awareness, then perhaps an opportunity will arise in which our "harmful/negative/self-critical thinking will actually "burn up" or become "transmuted" in the Light of our Higher Consciousness! Should this blessing occur, we may then experience a feeling of expansion in our hearts, and take a closer step toward Unity Consciousness.

OK! So... Just what does all this have to do with cancer and with me redefining my relationship to it? For whatever reason there are, modern "Western Medical" thinking conjures up a duality between winner /loser, good/bad, black white, Yin Yang set of polar opposites. In fact, it creates a platform upon which to wage all-out war in an ultimate battle between "us" and the "disease". We want to "beat" it, to "win", to "kill" it, to fight, fight, fight!

What I'm attempting to get insight into, lies in somehow trying to reframe the relationship itself; not in adversarial terms where, for whatever reasons there may be, I am constantly in an attack mode and am hurtling spears and slinging arrows with all my might, but where I instead view "Mr. Cancer" as a late-night messenger of Love who has come to allow me by virtue of his "Love Teaching" to open and purify my Heart!

One last point... It is said that the entire Universe is nothing more than a "magic mirror" of sorts; whatever I see, hear or do ("out there") is, in reality, only, "Reflection, Re-Sound, & Re-Action. There is no inner vs. outer; in fact, this entire phenomenal Universe is simply a "Projection of our Minds in Consciousness"!